I Feel Fat

Scott, Sam & I just got back from a really great vacation out to California to see Scott's parents and sisters and all. It is always a lot of fun when we head out there.

Last Thursday, we headed out there. I made a mistake when we went to purchase the tickets. I missed the "4 week rule" and bought the tickets 1 day too late, so the price of the tickets on Delta has jumped up $400's per person. ... Ouch ... So we ended up on Southwest and the only flight that we wanted to take was a 6:40am ... icky ... flight out of Salt Lake. So we got up super early. Like 3:30am and finished packing and headed out to California. We got there are like 7:20am so we were able to have Breakfast with Scott's Mom & Dad which was a real treat.

Scott's sister Sandi, that I think is wonderful, ended up calling us up and saying that she was going to the mall to buy her daughter, Rachel's friend a birthday present and wanted to know if I wanted to go with her. I took that opportunity and said yes in hopes to have a little Sister-in-Law bonding time.

We walked into Abercrombie, and I literally wanted to walk back out. I had this horrible feeling of, Holy Shit ... I can not fit into anything in this store. These clothes are tiny, itty bitty, disgustingly small. I am not too fat. I'm not the size I was a year ago, but I'm not fat. I don't think my 6 year old step-son would have fit into a lot of these clothes. Folded up on the tables were these shirts. Folded up, the shirts were at most 3 inches wide. So if you open them up, they were at most for a Large, 6 inches wide. I don't have a 6 inch wide waist. And that is a freaking Large! Most of humanity doesn't have a 6 inch wide waist.

So now I am left really puzzled. I want to make Abercrombie really wrong for making clothes like this. Really cute clothes that first of all I can't buy because they don't come in my size. And hello ... I'm a freaking size 4 at Express in pants. I want to make God wrong for creating fat. Why can't we all just be skinny or why did you have to give me a body that I really have to work at it to keep in shape and having a really big butt. I also got this week that my butt is very huge. I am totally going to work on my butt ... somehow. And why do you have to put it in kids heads that they have to be so skinny. My niece, who is beautiful and the size of one of my thighs is a size 8 in the store. It disgusts me ...